pearls & smiles.

so today.

i’m deciding to let all of my feelings go for this kid..

it’s gonna take time and patience tho. i don’t know how long it’s gonna take either. but if i TRY and keep my mind off the situation, hopefully i have a good outcome. i can’t continue to feel this way each and everyday..like i’m literally going insane…it may not seem like it from the outside, but the inside ? smh, i’m a wreck. i’ve never been this way before in my life. and i know now, since the situation was ignored, i have to deal with it on my own. and that is letting these feelings for jason go, and continue on with my life. everyday, i wake up with the same thing on my mind, it’s constantly there….like it’s crazy man. and it’s starting to affect me in a negative way, and i don’t need that at all in my life right now. i even dreamed about. i woke up, and told myself that from now on, i will NOT get in my feelings anymore…i won’t twatch him anymore…no texting him, tweeting him, nothing ! anything that will help me find my way past him…even tho it’s gonna be hard, if i put my mind to it, i will succeed. i just wish it didn’t have to end this way..if he would have at least talked to me, asked me what the letter was about, SOMETHING ! but it just showed that he didn’t care, and didn’t care about my feelings. time to move on. time to get focused on making this money this summer, and getting ready for Fall 2012. lot’s of hard work ahead. pray for me yall. and thanks for reading..